I miss my Mom so much right now it hurts! I put on my happy face, so to speak, each day because I have to. But, in truth, my heart is broken and I can't seem to get it in my head that she is gone! You don't know how often I have wanted to pick up the phone and call her, but yet I know I can't. If I lived closer I would probably find myself at the cemetery everyday and yet I haven't been back since the day we buried her. Life goes on and there are, as before, daily needs in my own family that keep me busy here. So the trip back to even see my Dad has not happened yet! I do talk to him every few days and sometimes daily, but, it's not the same. Dad used to say his friendly Hello and pass the phone to Mom. Now we have to come up with a conversation of our own, neither really knowing what to say and trying not to get down and talk about how we can't believe she is not with us anymore! I know this is all "normal" right now as it has only been a couple weeks, but it is so hard to NOT feel sad! The slightest memory brings me to tears and yet I don't want to forget! Someday soon, I will be able to blog about normal stuff, like before. But for now, I can't seem to come up with anything!
I know you all are still out there and praying for me and giving me words of encourgement! Thank you for that! I check in every few days or so. Again, Thank you for being there for me!