Today is 44 days since I lost my Mom! My Dad called tonight, just to talk. I hadn't called him since Friday, not for any particular reason....just life. He just wanted to see how "I" was doing. Of course, what do I do....start crying! That happens when I talk to my Dad....since mom died. I try REALLY hard not too, but it just happens. I don't want to, but I do! I thought I was doing good, not crying "every" day....just sometimes. Certain thoughts, middle of the night when I can't sleep, when I am alone....but, not as much.
Until I talk to my Dad!
You see, as I have mentioned, I live 1 1/2 hrs from my parents. So most of my communication was by phone, every few days. So for me, that is when it is hardest.
How many times I have thought to call and tell my Mom something and then think, Oh....yeah, can't! I miss her still and the tears flow.... I don't mean for them too....they just Do! Sometimes I feel as if I am just here. Functioning, because I have to. If I had my choice, I would have pajama day ALOT! But, I have to function....go on, ya know!
Dad said he went out to dinner with one of my sister's last night. He said she is having trouble too, but she did talk about Mom alittle bit.
He said he cries too, sometimes!
I guess this will happen for awhile yet! I guess this is normal!
Not easy though!
If you are Lucky enough to have your parents still with you....Hug them, Lots! And make sure they know you Love them! You won't regret it, I promise!